my hands are shaking

last year, on the second Tuesday in November, I came back to my dorm room to my roommate telling me that Trump had, officially, won the presidency. I remember what we said to each other - a big sigh, and "we're fucked." Yes, profanity, blah, blah, blah, get over yourself.  Wanna know why? Because I'm fucking…

hymnless

<king> There was a special kind of magic at the Kesha concert I went to last month. It was the first time in my life that I was comfortable in a mosh pit (thanks, SSRIs, you da bomb), a time where I got to reconnect with a dear friend of mine, and a time I…

clarity

<king> I've been thinking a lot about my life, lately. Where I want it to go, what I want to do, things like that. One of the manifestations of my anxiety disorder is that I get easily overwhelmed, and I don't take the time I need to reset. I push myself. I sign up for…

why EHS failed me, part two: of names and numbers

<king> welcome back, listeners. hope everything is going well in all y'all's lives. i'm currently eating lucky charms out of the box because i'm a mature adult with a credit card and bad impulse control. sorry mom  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ anyways. let's get started. i've been going back and forth with a bunch of people on the Eye…

of high hopes and letdowns, part one

<king> i'm the youngest in a family of greats. each person in my family, with some members in my extended family, have all accomplished something great. (for the sake of privacy, i'm not telling what they did.) but i digress. privacy disregarded, i'm the youngest in a family of greats. i am, some would say,…

why EHS failed me, part one

<king> now, i want to make it clear from the very beginning that there are three teachers at Evergreen High School that are exempt from my - for lack of a better word - wrath. Mrs. J. W., Mr. G. C., and Mr. C. B. They know who they are. Hopefully. Alright. Let's get started.…

on bullet journals and the price of aesthetic

<king> i've started a bullet journal. now, this isn't anything new - i've tried (and failed) to start bullet journals in the past, but i was always caught up in the ~aesthetic~ of it all. i'd spend time drawing banners and mood trackers and habit trackers, and then i'd never actually... use it. that kind…

hi my name is anxiety

<king> lmao for some reason that's so funny to me. Hi! My name is... anxIETY. i WORRY. about EVERYTHING. and i'm AWESOME at it. on the blogosphere, i go by king, but darn if I don't feel like Miss Anxiety at least 99.7% of the time. and I don't like to capitalize the first letters…